Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Election aftermath

I went to bed early, but when I awoke I discovered that its apparently the end of the world because the democratic candidate was elected for president.

Here is my 2 cents, take it or leave it.

Each candidate was human being. Flawed every bit as much as we are. He is not our Savior. He cannot personally fix the national debt, lower taxes, increase the job market, and whatever else the presidents is supposed to do. There are checks and balances in congress, decisions are not solely up to the president.

Each candidate told half truths. Both of the candidates ideas sounded great and promising, but I believe that both candidate knew that everything they were promising would not be possible to accomplish in their four year reign.

People say don't complain if you didn't vote, I say don't complain period. You wanna see change in the government? Maybe you should consider donation money to the political party of your choice, spending your free time passing out fliers or holding signs. Or maybe you should just run for an office yourself. Complaining on face book does nothing but start arguments and makes me seriously consider deleting you. Be mature people, you aren't in high school, and if you are... well I will probably just laugh at you thinking your teenage whining is going to change something. You want change, be the change, start a revolution, do something.

If you are a christian, you are required to respect your governing leadership. I didn't say you had to agree with everything the administration stands for... but the other candidate was Mormon, so I can tell you I definitely don't agree with all of his values either. The bible explains that you are submit to your governing authority, because authority comes from God... and I'm pretty for sure he knows what he is doing.

And finally, the election is over... if you really feel so strongly you need to move to Canada, please do so. I'm sure you'll be much happier there anyway. But for those that plan on sticking around, the best thing to do is pray for your government. Your democratic and republican representatives. While many have been up in arms, I doubt God even batted an eye. Jesus is still seated at the right hand of God. This election did not give him anxiety or cause him to pace back and forth. God is in control, period. And at the end of the day, if you take comfort in the, the economy and the future all seem a lot less scary.

The end, oh and God bless America :)

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

The Climb

Life's a climb, but the view is great...

I seem to forget this from time to time. 

I get so caught up in the future.

I get so frustrated about being here and not there.

You see I get distracted by things like having my apartment finished, having my dream job, or not stressing about money...

I get distracted, and I forget to enjoy what is right in front of me.

Don't you think that how Satan attempts to make us miserable?

By getting us to focus so much on what we want and don't have, rather than being thankful and enjoying what we do?

My life is good, great actually.

I have a ridiculously amazing husband who reminds me to enjoy the little things.

I have the smartest, most beautiful, loving 7 month old in the entire world, who makes me smile every single day. 

My family is always there for me. Honestly,you should be really jealous they aren't yours.

My church family is the best ever and don't know how I would have made it through life without them.

They say the grass is always greener on the other side. Its easy to be an outsider looking in, to assume someone else's life is easier or that once you get to a certain point that life will just be better. 

But I say the grass is greener where you water it. Take the time to enjoy today. To take care of yourself and the ones around you. Yeah you might have more and life might be easier at some point in the future, but why spoil today?

So look at the stars, smell the roses, take a nap, cuddle with someone you love, take a deep breath, eat ice cream, play in the leaves, buy yourself something... 

Enjoy today... because today is almost over, and we will never get it back.

"There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb"

Sunday, April 22, 2012


Forgive, sounds good. Forget, I'm not sure I could. They say time heals everything, but I'm still waiting...

I have found myself questioning lately if its possible for anyone to actually be faithful. I mean I understand that people are, but why?

Is faithfulness a direct result of love, commitment, responsibility... Or is faithfulness rather a by product of the lack of opportunity. 

In the right circumstances, can even the strongest men and women remain faithful to the one they love? Or are we all simply animals, subject to our primal urges when the opportunity presents itself. 

I've been cheated on in the past. It sucks. 

Your whole world changes. Its no longer possible to see things through your rose colored glasses. Everything begins to look grey...

You find yourself questioning and doubting everything. Why... I suppose that's the biggest one. Am I not good enough, is she better? Do you not love me, do you love her? Did I do something wrong... did I push you to do this... Did you think about me...  did you feel bad... do you regret it... will you do it again...

I can't give the perspective of a cheater, because well I've never done it... but to be the one cheated one, well I can't remember anything that made me question the world more...

You blame yourself, you blame your significant other, you blame that no good dirty skank he cheated with... You blame everyone, but then again, you still don't have any answers. Because at the end of the day, it doesn't matter whose fault it is... it still hurts.

I think it kind of scars you for life. It has definitely caused some deeply rooted trust issues that I still continuously struggle with. 

How do you forgive, how do you trust, how do you move forward? 

Do relationships mean anything... does love mean anything. What about commitment or integrity or well faithfulness?

It makes me wonder if God experiences this same contemplation...

When we knowingly and willingly choose our own desires over his, those times when we are unfaithful... do you think he wonders of he is enough for you. Do you think he maybe questions if you love him at all, or if you even thought about him or maybe that you might regret what you did.

I think getting cheated on puts a whole new perspective on the relationship between Hosea and Gomer. Its one of my favorite stories. 

I find myself being mad at Gomer. Doesn't she realize how good she had it? How could she keep walking out on a man who loved her and sacrificed for her and would have walked through fire for her?

But when I stop to realize that I am Gomer... that everyday I have a choice to follow the one who loves me unconditionally, or walk out on him yet again... 

Because at some point, we have all been unfaithful in our relationship to Christ.

We have all decided that what we want is more important than his will. 

I guess we are all cheaters. 

I think the important thing is what you do from here. 

People cheat in relationships all the time, and they stay together, they work on their relationship.. they move forward. 

People even stay in relationships with a person who consistently cheats on them because they love the person so much.

I guess my question is what kind of person are you going to be in your relationship with God?

Are you going to be the one who acknowledges your failures and makes an effort to be a better person, or are you going to be the kind of person who just continues to walk out on the one who loves you so much they won't leave you.

No one expects you to be perfect, or to never mess up, or to never be tempted. The important thing is that you try. Is that you put your whole heart and effort into being faithful to the ones you love. Its that you are honest and take responsibility when you mess up and move forward. I think that's what most people want in relationships... and I am pretty for sure that what God wants too. 

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Just Let Go

"YOU are my everything, and I will adore YOU..."

Something clicked the other day during worship. Service at church was a little different, and definitely amazing. I even got a bit teary eyed, which is nothing new with my being extremely hormonal.

These words, you are my everything kept resounding in my head.

Because you see, its so much easier said than done, or rather sang on a Sunday morning than carried out through the week... Making Him your everything.

There are things in my life that I want to keep... not because I don't trust God, more so because I am embarrassed.

My sins, my failures, my mistakes.

Its hard to let those things go, to stop punishing myself. To realize that I am in fact human, and will continue making mistakes.

Its hard to uncover those hurts and fears that I have managed to bury so deep within my heart... because there is sure to be an emotional breakdown when they come to light.

I am reminded of the story when the prostitute came to wash Jesus' feet.

Everyone was appalled, no one approved, after all she was a sinner... how quick people are to judge.

But the most fascinating thing, is that she didn't just come to ask for forgiveness, she came with her sin, her mistakes, her soon to be past.

The perfume she used to wash Jesus' feet was said to have cost a years worth of wages. And how do you think she earned those wages? The same way all the other prostitutes did.

It was symbolic of her bringing the things she was ashamed of, her failures, her hurts, and laying them literally at the feet of Jesus.

She didn't come to Jesus cleaned up and perfect, she came with her sin showing for the world to see.

The best part is, she was welcomed with open arms. He didn't scold her, or flinch because a woman so unclean and defiled was touching him.

No, he told her that her sins were forgiven and that her faith had saved her.

Its beautiful really. To realize we don't have to hide, that we can come before Jesus with our sin in hand, and literally give him everything... The good and the bad.

So, what is holding you back from giving everything. Is it fear, pride, rejection, hurt? We have all been there.

Its time to stop holding back and truly give everything.

And it isn't easy, its still scary and many times it hurts to be that vulnerable and honest.

But if we can't give everything, if we continue to allow ourselves to be held back by the past, we may never know how amazing a life of freedom can be.

"Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen
Break down our pride
And all the walls we've built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet...

With Everything, with everything..."

What is Paigerific? I’m glad you asked, although I don’t have an exact definition to offer. Paigerific is my thoughts and my heart. Paigerific is my passion and my fear. Paigerific is my success and my failures. Paigerific is my blood, sweat, and tears. Paigerific is more than just simply word. It’s a million different words all rolled into one. Words like hope, grace, determination, imperfection, love, faith, insecurity… The one word I would use to describe myself? I am Paigerific.


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