Monday, January 27, 2014

Not my Circus

"Not my monkeys, not my circus"

I have a serious issue with thinking lot of things are my business that really aren't. Not in like a nosey way... if there is any other way. 

But honestly, I think its because I care. Too much sometimes. 

Like when I see people not living up to their potential, well I want to hit them over the head! 

When I hear of people hurting others, I take it personally as well.

But this branches way out into things that I shouldn't let concern me, and people who have chosen not to be part of my life. 

I put up safe guards, I promise myself that I am not going to social media stalk, I promise myself I am not going to care, and I try to convince myself that this is the way its going to be and I need to start accepting reality... and the something comes along and hits me like a ton of bricks and all of a sudden I'm crying, and texting my friend about how upset I am, and getting myself all worked up over a situation that in reality has nothing to do with me, and contemplating murder (seriously just kidding about the last one... seriously).

I have to come to the realization that the only person I can change is me. I can try to be a light and an influence, but I cant force, beg, manipulate, or guilt someone else into changing. 

How I react to situations should be a greater concern of mine than the situation itself. But I fail at this... big time. 

But I am still learning. I can care about people, without getting caught up in people, and that's where I need to learn to draw the line. 

I care that you are making stupid decisions, but they are your stupid decisions to make, and I am not going to lose sleep over them anymore... 

Because well... its not my monkeys and its not my circus. 

1 Thessalonians 4:11- "Make it your goal, to lead a quiet life, minding your own business..."

Honestly, this made me laugh out loud. I googled a scripture about minding your own business, and who knew it actually existed. God is pretty cool sometimes.

But the reality is, that I am far from perfect, and getting caught up in someone else's drama isn't making me a better person or getting me in any way shape or form closer to God. 

Maybe I'm the only one that struggles with this... and maybe today's blog is just for me. And maybe not. 

But I have my own circus to attend to, and my own little monkey to take care of... and that's going to be my focus. 


  1. I totally left a very detailed comment...but I don't think it worked! I am going to try and see if this one works, and if so, maybe I will feel like retyping everything again... ;) Loved this post my friend!

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